Friday, January 1, 2016

Giving All You've Got When You Have Nothing Left to Give - FILL HER UP LORD

Excerpt: Preach the Word
 

Personal Concerns
The Lord Remains Faithful


 

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 I am one TIRED LADY! The responsibilities of being a Wife, Mother of two little ones, plus HOMESCHOOLING a Special Needs 3rd Grader, is EXHAUSTING. I am on EMPTY and yet I must continue to Give. I know that you are not supposed to give out of your reserve, that you are *supposed* to take care of yourself first and THEN help others, but sometimes, the deck of cards dealt to you, just does not PLAY along and one feels like a LOSER in the GAME OF LIFE. Yes I know that I have MANY, MANY things to be thankful for and the GOOD LORD knows that I am, but I have kept so much PAIN and feeling OBLIGATED to DO THE RIGHT THING and take the HIGHER ROAD that it has literally built up a TOXIC WELL inside of me and has now EXPLODED in both a physical, emotional and spiritual way. In many, many ways over the past year, specifically.

This old saying is very true:


 It is strange and wonderful that in the past year alone, I have become friends with strangers and strangers with friends...



 My FB Excerpt on 12/31/15: "Wow! Thank you for posting this (at the same time that I was thinking about this *very* situation that I had a year ago with a "friend")! I made my apology to her for waiting so long to address the particular issue, and all I needed to hear from that person (who had a lot of life drama in her life and I was always giving suggestions to help her rise above them), was "I don't remember the situation *BUT* I offer my apologies for my part in it." I forgave the person, but I have decided not to dwell on it and "unfriended" that person (who lives 10 minutes from me in real life). It was a very difficult decision to let go of that friendship, but the fact that she (1) did not remember the situation (of hitting my child) and worse (2) was *totally unwilling* to "talk about something that [she] did not remember and therefore would not offer an apology" and (3) told me when *I* figured out a way how we could continue to be friends to call her (which until she ACKNOWLEDGES the situation, there will be no reconciliation) was shocking to me!! Woosaaa - I needed to that out some more apparently.."
 
Recently, I had a very weird and scary encounter in my own home during BROAD-DAYLIGHT. I heard a knock at the front door, I was in the basement nursing Phoebe, when before I could get up the stairs to answer the door, Preston (4), went through three layers of "child-safety" locks and opened the door to some GUY. So by the time I get to the door a few moments later, there is some GUY STANDING IN MY KITCHEN!! Who are you I asked? The guy said, "the PLUMBER." No, I didn't call for a plumber, I respond. He says, "Yes, I just got off the phone with you." Umm, NOPE (interestingly, my landline was malfunctioning and I could NOT dial out and my cell phone would not keep a charge, sot that I KNOW that I was NOT on the PHONE)! He says, "Is this XXX street address?" Yes, I answer. And then he leaves. 

What in the world?? I am confused at what just happened--at how my kid opens the door, there is a man wearing khakis and graphic t-shirt with no badge and a "work truck" in the driveway. No, I did not get the license plate. No the guy did not leave a business card or even offer to call his boss to clear up the misinformation. So I text the situation to my friends and family. They all say, CALL the POLICE!. Ok, well, I am in my pjs, the kitchen is a wreck and well I am out of sorts. I don't need any more drama or for a phone call to the police to go in the wrong direction... I do eventually call the non-ER police number and it takes the cop THREE HOURS to get to my HOUSE! Whatever.  He chalks it up to the man's dispatcher must have transposed your house address. Hmmm. Maybe (NOT), but isn't it protocol for service people to wait outside until AN ADULT OPENS THE DOOR and wait for an INVITE to come into someone's HOUSE and wear a UNIFORM and SHOW CREDENTIALS?

Meanwhile, I am in the middle of a healing crisis from my raw foods diet and fasting. Dr. Robert Morse describes the lymphatic system as being the *SEWER SYSTEM* of the body. I had been seeking the Lord for healing my body from food and heavy metal toxins ( I have gained 100 lbs over the past 20 years and my thyroid is way out of whack). I asked the Lord to clean me OUT and UP...

The Bible describes Angels as being Messengers

After a couple of days of the PLUMBER incident, I start to wonder if this "guy" was an Angel -- a MESSENGER --his *MESSAGE* was "YOU CALLED FOR A PLUMBER." Huh? Isn't that something? I DID ask for the Lord to clean me OUT. Was this a spiritual answer being manifested in the physical realm? Was this "guy" really an Angel like in Hebrews 13:2?  Either way, the MESSAGE was about PLUMBING ISSUES in my HOUSE and in my HOUSE (being a TEMPLE of the Lord).
"Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit dwells in your midst?"



 I say ALL of that to say, in the middle of being poured OUT as a DRINK OFFERING, the process of being CLEANED OUT physically and spiritually has made me one TIRED LADY and one who has been so EMPTIED of HERSELF, that NOW the work of the Lord can really BEGIN. For the Lord is my Rock and my Cornerstone. I must be made low so that HE can be raised HIGH. Selah!




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